Chapter 944: His Loneliness

Chapter 944: His Loneliness

“For me?”

Lin Nuo let out a cold smile, doubting Qin Shili’s words.

When it came to loyalty, he likely only considered Ruo’er to be truly devoted, while everyone else might have their reservations.

Compared to his previous life, only Ruo’er remained steadfast in this life, even after encountering what turned out to be mere illusions.

Of course, he was speaking of loyalty; as for the affection Ruo’er had for him in the past, it was merely loyalty and not love, considering he hadn’t treated her well back then. It made sense that she wouldn’t have romantic feelings for him, only loyalty.

“Can I take it that you’re questioning me, Lin Nuo?”

“You can interpret it that way.”

“Then how can I avoid being questioned by you? Am I truly untrustworthy?”

Qin Shili’s voice carried a sense of melancholy; this was indeed a heavy blow to her.

Both were close to each other, even sharing a bed before, yet now, there was a lack of trust—who wouldn’t feel heartbroken?

“You can say what you wish, but until it comes to that point, no one knows how it will turn out. Before one makes a complete choice, it’s easy to make decisions.”

Lin Nuo spoke cryptically, leaving the always intelligent Qin Shili thoroughly confused.

“What point? Can you clarify?”

“I’m not talking about the kind of point you think.”

“Not the kind I think? Are you deceiving me? Am I just a tool for your physical and mental use?”

Lin Nuo: “…No, you believe I chose to go astray for the world’s sake, but this will ultimately surpass your expectations. Enough, anyway, you haven’t gone through that step, so everything you say is mere speculation. Please understand, I’ve grown accustomed to walking alone, so I tend to be cautious around others. It’s not just you.”

“Fine, I respect your thoughts. You suspect me, perhaps because I’m still in Xuanyun Sect. If I leave, I can follow you.”

“That’s unnecessary.”

Lin Nuo dismissed her idea; it wouldn’t be good for Qin Shili to leave Xuanyun Sect.

There were still people there who were valuable; otherwise, they’d lack information.

Could she rely on Su Kexin for intel?

That was a joke; Su Kexin hadn’t even figured out her own position.

“Why? Is it that I don’t qualify? Liu Shuqin qualifies to follow you, right?”

“Not at all. She was forced into darkness too and actually doesn’t wish for it. Now, it’s been a long time since Demon Star fell; the Magic Spring has been destroyed by various sects and immortals. You’ve been practicing for a while; although you came close to becoming a true Demon Practitioner, you ultimately turned back. It’s difficult to truly embrace the darkness without going through the Magic Spring. If you force it, it might cause great harm to your body.”

“Then let it harm.”

“Unnecessary. If your body suffers greatly, it won’t help you in Demon Cultivation at all. Your current condition is excellent, allowing you to switch between sect methods and Demon Power. If you change, it might get dangerous.”

“In the end, I simply don’t qualify, right?” Qin Shili said mournfully.

“That’s not what I meant. Perhaps, in the future, you will find the answer and make choices you won’t regret.”

Lin Nuo embraced her and said casually, which made Qin Shili quite angry, but she could only be upset, refraining from acting out.

Because of the current situation, if she acted recklessly, Lin Nuo wouldn’t be lenient, and then she would truly be without hope. That scared her.

At least she could still feel the warmth of Lin Nuo’s body; it wasn’t too bad after all.

“So, what should I do? Tell me, how can I satisfy you?”

“Just follow your own desires and not what I command. I don’t wish to order anyone around. Rest assured, I pursued you in the past; now that you’re willing to draw closer, I certainly won’t let go. But if you make a choice you won’t regret that contradicts my thoughts, I will also let you go.”

“I can’t comprehend your meaning; my desire is to follow you. Doesn’t that contradict your wishes? Your desire is for me to go far away, isn’t it?”

“Not at all. Forget it; let’s not talk about that. In short, you don’t need to give up your entire life for me.”

Lin Nuo looked at Qin Shili, and she felt quite helpless; talking to Lin Nuo required effort.

Forget it, let him be.

Both angry and resentful, but too afraid to act recklessly; perhaps this was the price of being infatuated with this strange man.

Qin Shili leaned against Lin Nuo, holding his hand, resting her shoulder against him.

It seemed intimate, yet she still didn’t feel close to him; he had a heart that hadn’t fully opened to her.

“Today happens to be the middle of the month, with the full moon hanging high in the sky, evoking feelings of reunion. Perhaps it is heaven’s arrangement that we meet again; I feel as if we’ve become a family here in Summer Manor.”

“That’s nice.”

“Your tone seems a bit perfunctory.”

“It’s not; I always sound this way.” Lin Nuo replied.

“Do you like full moons?”

“Not disliked, but can’t say I like it.”

“Why not? Is the meaning of reunion not good?” Qin Shili countered.

“Perhaps it is good. But even if it represents reunion, some people remain alone and helpless, and that’s a kind of irony, not representing hope.”

“Some people? Are they the ones you care about? Or is it the past you?”

Qin Shili seemed to have sensed something and tried to push further, thinking she might uncover some truths.

“You’re quite insightful. But with your sharpness, can you deduce what it is? I’m quite curious.”

Lin Nuo coldly smiled, eager to see if this smooth and beautiful ice princess could guess his tragic fate.

“I can’t deduce it. Do you have moments of loneliness? Is it something from your childhood? In that case, I cannot explore.”

“Consider it my future self.”

“Your future self?”

Qin Shili listened, feeling confused; no matter how bright she was, she couldn’t grasp this.

Future? Was he just spouting nonsense?

“I can’t understand.”

“You don’t need to. Just take it as me talking nonsense.”

“The more you say that, the more I want to understand. Here’s my thought: perhaps you don’t look lonely on the outside. But your heart is lonely, precisely because your depth makes it so that no one understands your profound state of mind, not even me. Therefore, even if the full moon symbolizes reunion, and even if you truly reunite with your family, you will still be lonely. It’s like being in a bustling city, yet your heart remains in ruins.”

“Spot on. Well said, just as expected of you.”

Lin Nuo couldn’t help but admire her; indeed, Qin Shili was insightful and thought-provoking.

Such a woman was truly wonderful; he still preferred to have thoughtful women by his side.

“Enough, discussing this is pointless. I haven’t appreciated the moon with anyone like this; today, I’ll enjoy it with you.”

“Then I am extremely honored; thank you for your favor.”

Qin Shili leaned against Lin Nuo; in the past, she hadn’t cared about such nightscapes, full moons, and stars, but with Lin Nuo, everything seemed to gain meaning.

She didn’t understand his loneliness, but she would strive to comprehend it; if she couldn’t, then what would it mean to be by his side?

The two stayed awake, watching the stars and the moon until dawn broke.

And the next day promised to be a festive occasion.