The firewood did not easily extinguish.
Is it that they’re so curious about the face of a no-cam streamer or do they want to intentionally tear me down?
Or maybe it’s just that they’ve gotten excited because there’s something to chew on collectively.
The problem is that I am the target.
Was it said that from a distance it looks like a comedy, but up close it’s a tragedy?
If it weren’t about me, I might have mingled with those people over there, laughing and chatting.
Or perhaps I would have remained consistently indifferent, which fits my personality a bit better.
Nonetheless, I kept the broadcast running steadily.
Every broadcast had comments about my appearance, but by now, I had become used to it, whether in chats or donations.
It seemed to have solidified into a meme already.
Whenever I do something, there are chats saying it’s a “cute girl action” or something similar.
If I yawn, they say it’s cute, and sometimes donations come through saying they’ll buy tissues if I blow my nose.
When I was broadcasting half-cam during a tournament, it didn’t seem as bad, but somehow it feels worse now.
At this rate, I might as well be just like a girl streamer.
No, wait, there’s a subtle difference too.
Which girl streamer would have someone say they want to buy tissues used for blowing their nose? At least in the streams I watched, reactions of that sort didn’t exist.
It feels like I’m looking at a bizarre mass that has been oddly mixed together.
What must it feel like to have affectionate feelings for someone whose face you’ve never seen?
Reading the posts filled with burdensome emotions that go up everyday in the café, I often ponder how to react.
I was simply too weak to feel satisfied that the fan café was truly deserving of the term “fan café”.
The community was primarily focused on Tikitaka.
They wanted a place where funny or cool moments from today’s broadcast would be shared among members, while viewers somewhat upheld etiquette, behaving as I had wanted.
Seeing posts that subtly mocked me for not leaving notices, I couldn’t help but admire them.
But now it was different.
All the posts were covered with comments like “Your voice is great”, “I love the moderator”, “Please swear at me”.
What am I supposed to do when faced with this?
Humans are always powerless in the face of overwhelming disasters.
This time was no different; I could only hope this situation passes well.
Tomorrow the sun would rise again.
*
Thus, the broadcast had to continue.
Even if the world were to end tomorrow, I would be like someone planting an apple tree.
The analogy might be a bit off, but that is how I felt.
After streaming for several days, I felt that my content had run dry.
It wasn’t simply that I had nothing to upload to YouTube or show the viewers.
I was purely tired of the game I had been playing and needed something new.
There were ways to communicate with viewers without playing games, but recently even the word “communication” felt embarrassing to use.
You don’t call a one-sided conversation communication, do you?
While I was looking for a new game, a thought occurred to me.
Why should I wrack my brain alone when I could borrow the collective intelligence of the viewers?
Of course, bringing in a game that suits my tastes and scolding this insincere crowd, like last time, could be fun, but also picking a game that would suit a broadcast for everyone was.
I felt it was part of the broadcast itself.
“Okay, for that reason, I created a fun game recommendation board. Please recommend games that you think would be good for me to play on the broadcast.”
Since there are 10,000 viewers right now, the posts should pile up quickly.
[Why is the ‘fun’ stuck there?]
[To annoy the viewers]
[That’s kinda cute]
[No more mindless cuteness]
[What you’re doing is cute, lol]
[Can I recommend any game?]
[No horror games, please]
“Yes, any game is fine. As for horror games… I don’t think you would enjoy them much. It’s not that I’m scared, really it’s just that I’m fearless, so I won’t give the responses you all want.”
What is it that viewers want from a streamer playing a horror game?
They find it entertaining when a streamer gets scared, shrinks back, or shows a vulnerable side that stimulates protective instincts.
[You’re talking faster because you’re scared, huh?]
[No horror games, please!!]
[But if it’s really Mollu, she might be fearless.]
[Unpredictable…]
I was being completely serious, yet some people misinterpreted my intentions.
Well, let them think what they will. Trying out a popular horror game lately wouldn’t be too bad.
It’s only the viewers that find it uninteresting.
“Looks like the posts are pouring in, I’ll play the game with the most likes in an hour.”
This way, I could communicate with the viewers and play the game moderately.
It’s truly a perfect balance.
The viewers seemed satisfied, as the reactions weren’t bad.
I started examining the posts one by one.
“There’s a 62% discount on Steam, only one hour left, it’s about to sell out… The title is written like a home shopping ad, but there’s no game description, eliminated.”
“A game where you become a dinosaur in the prehistoric age and survive… This seems like a lame game, let’s hold off for now.”
“If I just upload it, it’ll get 20 billion views on YouTube?! A certified box office hit! Not gonna do it. Nope~”
Reading and evaluating each incoming post was a somewhat entertaining process.
People have different game preferences and values, leading to genuinely unique opinions in real-time.
I was conversing with viewers while reading each one.
<Mollu's Yuksu donated 10,000 won!>
-I created a presentation, can you take a look?
“Excuse me? A presentation?”
[Huh?]
[What’s that?]
[Mollu’s Yuksu, wow!]
[How are you going to show it?]
The sudden remark made both me and the viewers flustered.
However, the donor continued speaking without any sign of confusion.
To avoid getting buried in the fast-moving chat, they donated again.
<Mollu's Yuksu donated 100,000 won!>
-Can I have a DM in the café?
110,000 won is certainly not a small amount of money.
What could they possibly want to show me this much?
Of course, recent nasty individuals might gather in my room, and an unverified person could act harmfully.
In that case, I could just look at it alone and stream it.
“Yes, just a moment… Your café name and donation name are the same. It would be good if you could change your nickname. Let’s do a screen share on Discord.”
[DM????????]
[I’m so jealous, so jealous, so jealous]
[You’re using the same name in the café, that’s legendary, lol]
[The moderator’s whispers are so naughty]
[Should probably mark it as 19+, huh?]
[ASMR level;]
[Isn’t this the same as chatting? Chatting with the moderator? I might be a bit envious of that.]
[Even sending a friend request on Discord, damn.]
Ignoring the flustered viewers, I got the ID from Mollu’s Yuksu and connected to Discord.
“Is this Mollu’s Yuksu?”
“Yes, it is.”
[Yes, it’s me (confident)]
[We need to do this to chat with the moderator…]
“What? You have a nice voice! I thought you’d be a strange person.”
“Ah, thank you. You have a nice voice too, Mollu.”
[This crazy fox…]
[Look at how flustered Yuksu is, lol]
[Mollu, you shouldn’t speak like that so casually…]
“I’m going to turn off the screen for a moment, just to check if what I’m about to broadcast is acceptable.”
With that, I left behind the shouting viewers and reviewed the presentation materials through the screen share from Yuksu.
What is this?
As if to prove that it wasn’t harmful to me, he quickly flipped through the materials.
I get that, I get that, but…
“I think it’s fine for broadcast, but what is this…?”
“It’s a PowerPoint presentation. If it’s okay, can I present it myself?”
“Yeah, I don’t think there’d be any problem.”
[What could it be then?]
[Didn’t you just post on the board like 30 minutes ago, and you already made a PPT?]
[That’s quick.]
[Show it already!]
Out of nowhere, it became a presentation meeting.
The scale had suddenly enlarged.
Returning to the broadcast, I transmitted Yuksu’s visual materials on screen.
At the same time, with a booming sound effect, a blue character resembling something I had seen before made its appearance.
[Bonobono enters the chat, lol]
[That’s ridiculous.]
[If it’s Bonobono, I could make one in 30 minutes too.]
[Ignoring Bonobono? For real, it’s a cheat key in presentations.]
“Um, is it alright if I start the presentation?”
“Uh? Yes. So, it’s a game recommendation, right?”
“Yes, that’s correct.”
They say that when a person encounters something incomprehensible, they go silent and become flustered.
I was exactly in that state now.
What kind of person suddenly pops up like this? That was my thought.
[Mollu’s flustered, lol]
[Fake madness vs. real madness]
[Mollu, so your crazy act was all a concept?]
[Bonobono villain, you win!]
And just like that, the game introduction by the suddenly appearing madman began.
