Chapter 73: Yu’s Psychological Self-Narration
Even if Falz doesn’t like me…
I like Falz!
Yu firmly believes she can achieve this, unhesitatingly coming to this world.
But…
She can’t stand…
The fear in Falz’s eyes towards her. She’s not foolish; of course she can see it…
Why is he so afraid of her…
He’s always like this. Every time she approaches, she can feel his forced smile; even if he pretends to be indifferent on the surface, deep inside he feels lost…
Wanting to erase this feeling, the more she wants to draw close to him, the more he seems unable to resist her, this urgent feeling, she just can’t control it.
He takes her to buy clothes, to get food, and she really feels happy…
Yes… the happiest days…
But even if she continues to deceive herself that Falz doesn’t dislike her, his true demeanor always makes her sad…
Even minor differences in attitude can stab into her heart like needles…
She’s not good at showing her wronged side; on the contrary, she only shows her aggressive side…
She’s always protected herself this way…
Because she sees the differences in how Falz treats Chloe and how he treats her, she becomes more and more irritable and uncontrollable…
I don’t want to be so excessive…
I can’t control myself…
I don’t know what to do…
When it comes to Falz, she is like an addict…
It’s crazy…
“Since you know you were wrong… will you still barge into my room in the future?”
Chen Yuan continues the conversation.
Yu looks at Chen Yuan with her beautiful eyes, filled with meaning: “…”
Chen Yuan understands her mischievous gaze, as if saying: Falz, you don’t like this, do you~
Chen Yuan: “…”
Well, that means there will be a second time…
Chen Yuan’s brow twitches, and he changes the topic: “How do you get along with your classmates?”
“I haven’t interacted with my classmates; they all come to ask me for my contact info.” Yu honestly replies that all morning, apart from the boys asking for her WeChat, no one else approached her.
She doesn’t want others to get close to her…
She just wants Chen Yuan to be near her…
“Well, that won’t do…” Chen Yuan looks concerned. “Chloe is making friends with other classmates.”
“Anyone can be friends with her. It’s cheap; it’s more dedicated if I have one!” Yu’s tone carries a bit of pride.
Chen Yuan: “…”
So he started a lengthy psychological setup for her, and it wasn’t until they were both called to the dining table that he wrapped up…
“If you want to integrate into this world, you must start by making friends. You need to tone down your personality; you don’t have to be so hostile; not all humans are bad.” Chen Yuan encouraged.
“Yu, if you want to stay in this world, you need to integrate into it, otherwise…”
“You might only be able to go back…”
Back to your world…
Chen Yuan purposely said this; it’s her soft spot. To be precise, Chen Yuan is using himself as a bet. Since she traveled so far to find him, her feelings for him are definite…
Then using this point, to help her change isn’t impossible.
She can’t avoid integration…
He also can’t be with her 24/7…
In two years, he will graduate; what will she do then? If she’s still like she is now, barging into his room at midnight…
Suddenly, Chen Yuan even thought of sacrificing himself for her…
For example, using entry into his room as a reward…
As long as she makes friends or does something…
If there are rewards, wouldn’t she be motivated…?
Just that, he can’t let Chloe and the others find out. Otherwise, chaos will surely ensue…
After finishing, Chen Yuan stood up. He had already talked to her about psychological setup; as for barging into the room, he was already with Chloe, so he wasn’t afraid.
He hoped she could change…
But…
Upon hearing Chen Yuan say that, the already unstable Yu misunderstood his meaning…
If she can’t integrate into this world, she can only…
Go back…
Is Falz… trying to push me away…
But I don’t want to integrate into this world…
I only want you…
With feelings of grievance and unwillingness mixed together, she looked in disbelief at Chen Yuan gradually walking towards the dining table, further away from her…
The unease in her heart amplified…
Until she was on the verge of breaking down…
Afternoon.
Chen Yuan has a class.
He then took Chloe and Yu to their designated squads.
Chen Yuan was never worried about Chloe; once they arrived, he saw girls walking towards Chloe, chatting and laughing.
She adapted very well.
However, when he took Yu to her squad, there wasn’t a single person, and they even kept their distance from her…
Though it didn’t seem like isolation, it felt more like fear, and Chen Yuan doubted this would feel good either.
While feeling heartbroken, he sighed. After watching her from a distance, he ultimately decided to stay and keep her company a bit longer.
After all, there was still time.
“Hey, hey, hey, another one is here…”
“Up, up, this one shouldn’t be a feminine guy.”
“Really brave~”
As always, other onlookers in the squad thought Chen Yuan was another clueless senior trying to hit on Yu.
However, this time, they didn’t witness Yu shouting at the senior to get lost; instead, they saw the two having a gentle conversation, and for a long time, Yu didn’t show any impatience…
Even…
“Really? Then why did that senior sit down?!”
“Ahem, help me up, let me see!”
“It’s real; he actually sat down so sweetly? Yu didn’t scold him?!”
“Wow… is Yu smiling?!”
“Looks good…”
“You’re not seeing things… what’s going on…”
“The ice princess has blossomed~”
“d*mn…”
“That senior isn’t even as handsome as me…”
“…”
“Recommendation for an eye exam…”
“Shut up!”
“Okay, get along well, alright? Try to restrain your personality a bit, okay?” Chen Yuan stayed with her for a while longer, always speaking in a gentle tone.
This made Yu, who felt imbalanced during lunch, finally feel a sense of balance.
Falz didn’t really want to drive her away, right…
He still cares about her…
Noticing her mood was off, he was willing to stay with her a bit longer…
Falz is the best.
She really should think more for him…
“Well, I’m leaving; class is starting soon.” Chen Yuan whispered, then prepared to get up, suddenly being grabbed by Yu.
“Falz… I…”
“Hmm? What’s wrong?”
“Can I have a hug?”
“Ah… there are so many people here…” Before Chen Yuan could finish his words, Yu hugged him on her own. Since lunchtime, she hadn’t been quite right; now that feeling of unease had slightly eased.
???
Chen Yuan: ??????
Onlookers: ?????????
“I can’t believe it!!”
“I can’t believe it!!”
“I can’t believe it!!!!!!”
The murmurs rose…
Seeing this, Chen Yuan felt his face redden while he realized something was off with her.
If it were the usual Yu, how could she show such a fragile expression, even telling him in advance that she wanted a hug…
She should have directly hugged him and kissed…
Worry outweighed the awkwardness at this moment; Chen Yuan didn’t care about others’ gazes anymore; instead, he was truly concerned about Yu’s condition and leaned down to ask, “What’s wrong? Is there something you want to tell me? Or… have you gotten into trouble?”
Yu didn’t speak, but shook her head in response.
Once a person falls into a self-reproaching cycle of grievance, they can’t withstand others’ care.
Yu was no different. She loved this feeling right now, as if Chen Yuan treated her as his whole world.
Speaking softly to her, worrying about her, allowing her to hug him…
Not affected by others rejecting her…
But… she also knew…
This was all temporary; she wouldn’t always be like this, and Chen Yuan wouldn’t always care for her.
And there’s Chloe, plus now Leia…
They would all compete with her…
Thinking of this, she looked up and happened to meet Chen Yuan’s gaze…
She stood on her toes…
