I am back – Chapter 210

There are some unbelievable things you experience while living your life.

Oh, of course, I’m not talking about fighting the Demon King in another world or anything like that. Those kinds of experiences are definitely not something anyone goes through. In fact, shocking events turn into stark reality once you catch a whiff of iron and blood, making you realize it’s all real.

What I mean by unbelievable experiences are those moments that feel so dreamlike that even while living them, you think, “Is this really not a dream, and am I just asleep?”

For example,

“Okay, look this way! Here, this camera lens! Not the camera brand! Yes, that’s it!”

I was taking pictures with someone I really like.

It’s true that you can take pictures anytime, but it’s different when the purpose of the photo is special.

It’s not just a picture taken with a smartphone; it’s a professionally done photo taken after paying a hefty price.

Not just the photos. We spent a lot on the clothes and the location, and even on makeup for my face.

Choosing an outfit involved a lot of thought.

My sister wanted to wear a dress. That was obvious. Considering her sexual orientation… it would be easy to guess thinking of my current gender, but her fashion choices were definitely not masculine.

I’ve never seen her wearing pants and a shirt or with her hair cut short.

My sister wanted to wear a white wedding dress for the ceremony.

Choosing what she would wear was easy enough without needing my agreement… but the issue was what I would wear.

“I don’t think wearing a dress is that bad.”

Adding “I don’t think it’s bad” made it sound like I would go along with her will, but honestly, her expression while saying it was so resolute that I felt a bit pressured.

“It doesn’t really matter who plays what role between us, right? Whether you’re a guy or a girl, I don’t care.”

From her words, I could feel a strong desire to see me in a wedding dress.

Previously, both of us had worn something wedding-dress-like in the Elf Capital City, taking a carriage that looked like it was meant for newlyweds, and it was a parade that could only be mistaken for a wedding procession. But even so, that dress and this one are different.

To be honest, wearing a dress made of white petals—though it was closer to “leaves” in reality—felt too far removed from reality to consider it ‘a wedding.’

However, that event didn’t leave us unchanged. After all, it was quite literally something we experienced, not just in our imagination or dreams.

As proof, the dress from that time was kept in the dress room attached to our bedroom.

“You looked beautiful back then.”

Since that time, my sister often told me that.

So, I somewhat expected that a situation like this would arise from the beginning. I just didn’t anticipate her desire to be this intense.

“Still, I also have a wedding in mind.”

I strongly opposed my sister.

“Just like you pictured yourself marrying me, I’ve thought about marrying you many times. And each time, I was in a tuxedo.”

That’s right.

Even back when I was a guy, I had many fantasies about my sister. In fact, I envisioned not just the wedding but what came after… but well, that wasn’t particularly important right now.

Anyway, in that fantasy, I was always wearing a tuxedo.

The thing is, tuxedos aren’t usually something guys fantasize about wearing just once; there might be a longing for suits in general, but it doesn’t specifically have to be about tuxedos. Besides, many people wouldn’t easily notice the design difference in tuxedos.

So usually, more attention is drawn to the bride’s attire. It’s flashy, varied in shape, and, most importantly, the color white really stands out.

But what I wanted to say wasn’t that I absolutely wanted to wear a tuxedo.

“I want to be the… role of a guy.”

At the wedding, I wanted to be my sister’s man.

I know I’ve changed. It’s been about a year living in this body, after all. By now, I’ve almost adapted to the body itself, so I hardly feel awkward anymore.

But still, I couldn’t completely let go of the persona I had as a man inside me.

“……”

My sister listened to me and stared silently for a while before slowly nodding.

“……Alright. I think I understand what you’re trying to say. Honestly, I can’t say I never imagined it before you changed into that body.”

“Right?”

“After hearing you, I find myself wanting to see you dressed like that too.”

“……Huh?”

“Dressed ‘too’?”

“Yeah. That outfit too.”

There was a steely resolve in my sister’s eyes when she spoke.

A resolve that wouldn’t forget me even after I die, living only with thoughts of me, creating another lover.

“Then, let’s do this.”

……So, according to my sister’s insistence, we decided to go with ‘shooting in a dress, ceremony in a tuxedo.’

Of course, my sister agreed for both the shoot and the ceremony to be in dresses. Thank goodness for that! If my sister wore the tuxedo while I wore the dress… well, that would have been incredibly embarrassing.

“Yes, perfect! You both look lovely!”

The photographer we hired seemed hardly surprised. It seems same-sex couples often do wedding ceremonies or bridal shoots, even if they can’t register their marriage.

Being called lovely felt a bit embarrassing.

To be honest, I’ve come to realize that splitting hairs over who’s male or female doesn’t matter much anymore. It’s been a year since I returned to this body, and everyone I met afterwards thinks I’m a woman.

No one really pays any mind, even if I act or speak in a very masculine way.

Mom believed in who I am, and later, Older Sister Yu-ri also came to understand me. Various things happened, but in the end, Older Sister Yu-ri believed in me too.

So, it doesn’t really matter. Whether others think of me as a woman or a man. I’m just Cha Si-hyun, and my sister and I are fond of each other.

That’s the truth.

But…

“Beautiful!”

“You wear that well.”

Hearing those shouts from Dana and Kalia made me feel super embarrassed.

Those two knew well what I used to look like when I was a guy.

To be more precise, they were the ones who remembered how I looked most manly, the ones who remembered me fighting the Demon King’s army with a sword.

Kalia was in formal attire, and Dana was dressed in a somewhat casual outfit.

If we were in a studio, it might have been a bit awkward to follow them in. But the studio shoot had actually ended last week, and now, we were outdoors.

A quiet beach with hardly anyone around. The photographer asked us not to spread the word about the location, saying it was so unknown.

But for those who do advertisement shoots or whatever, it’s a well-known spot.

Older Sister Yu-ri couldn’t make it here because she was taking care of the baby after giving birth, but she planned to attend the wedding.

Honestly, the guest list for the wedding was quite extravagant.

Mom, Older Sister Yu-ri, and a few of her friends.

And some people who were my colleagues.

I mentioned to my colleagues that it might be pretty empty on my side, but they brought in additional people from Irrelaysia.

Including His Majesty the King and the Princess, the Elf elders, and a few from the Knights Order.

It seems several nobles wanted to attend as well, but thankfully Kalia managed to block them. If she hadn’t, the number of people would have been overwhelming.

……So, well, my side would look like a quirky sight with foreign guests who speak Korean exceptionally well.

The ceremony would be officiated by the Pastor, and the emcee would be Park Hyun-seung, Older Sister Yu-ri’s husband.

Pia and Arna would be responsible for the wedding song. The two are still practicing hard at home. Pia has sung a lot in church, and as for Arna… well, Elves are known to sing well.

It seems they don’t want to let me hear it beforehand.

“Okay, lift your chin, and we’ll take one more shot!”

Click. Even in broad daylight, the flash on the camera went off multiple times.

I felt a bit shy, but…

Just a slight glance away, and I could see my sister’s happy face smiling at me.

Isn’t that what matters?

Yeah, that’s what matters.

Both my sister and I, happy.

That’s the ending.

I turned back to the camera and smiled brightly again.