This World is too Cruel to Men – Chapter 455

Honestly, at first… no matter what Chae-rim’s sister said, I was determined not to comply.

It was considerate and grateful of her to keep me in mind and take care of me, but there was no obligation to do so, and after all, weren’t we just competing against each other with Dogun in the middle?

With that in mind, I thought I wouldn’t budge, but the moment I heard her explanation suggesting I should hold on, I couldn’t help but reconsider.

Because… I saw it as an opportunity.

As luck would have it, both Yoonseo and Baeksulhwa were supposed to be busy that day.

If this wasn’t an opportunity, what on earth was?

Of course… meddling on a day someone else had already claimed for themselves was strictly prohibited as a ‘rule,’ but what had been mentioned at the time were all direct actions.

That meant, as long as I avoided direct interference, I was free to attempt other things.

‘Calling would be too obvious…’

What if I sent a message or something and totally wrecked the mood by interrupting?

In a situation where someone is focused, just such a simple act could be enough to disturb them.

Also, didn’t the three of them have a pretty valid reason?

Right now, Dogun was stuck in this hospital room, practically in a standstill, but prior to that, he had been managing their schedules.

Not just a typical lackey managing schedules, but someone who actively helped with training, so if I used that excuse to pop in while training, there would be nothing I could do about it.

So I was pondering how best to handle that when I learned that the three of them were going to be busy.

Being well aware that I had been lagging behind the others, I couldn’t miss this chance and decided to accept Chae-rim’s sister’s suggestion…

‘What am I going to do…?’

Dogun was just too formidable.

I mean, why was he so… good at kissing?

Honestly, at first, I found that quite frustrating.

Back then, no matter how talented he might have been, I couldn’t help but think that he would have been awkward at first; considering how many… kisses he must have had to reach the proficiency he had now.

He was probably kissing those three every single day.

That’s how he became so skilled.

So at first, that thought bothered me, but… it didn’t last long.

Because when I was kissing him, it felt unbelievably good.

To put it simply… just touching our lips together felt like a whirlpool of ecstasy, something I had never felt before in my life.

Thanks to that, my toes were curling up, and it was quite the struggle to keep from cramping.

Just the act of pressing our lips together was enough to feel that way, but the moment Dogun’s tongue slipped into my mouth, it only intensified.

The sensation was on a whole different level.

Seriously, it felt like all that time spent just kissing was such a loss.

No, it was more than a loss; it was definitely a loss.

If I had known about this sooner, I wouldn’t have settled for just touching lips like before.

And in that light, it really makes you see how fickle human feelings can be.

Just a moment ago, the simple act of being close to Dogun made my heart and body feel like they were floating, but now that I knew something better existed, the previous satisfaction had completely vanished, leaving behind a hollowness and a desire to fill that emptiness rising in my chest.

To think, it was just a brief experience, but if I got to really indulge in this, how would it turn out?

What if, instead of just kissing, we shared lingering kisses until we were gasping for air?

Curiosity flooded my mind like water spilling over a dam that had just begun to give way.

‘Is this why…’

People who make music or live off their art kept talking about muses?

I used to find that baffling, but now that I was in this situation, I felt like I understood why everyone was so obsessed with finding their muse.

Maybe they had all experienced something similar.

It was kind of amazing.

Like my mind was hosting a fireworks festival.

Even just sitting quietly and breathing, inspiration exploded inside my head.

If I could work in this state all the time, I could create any manga, no matter its content.

For example, a romance genre that I had always wanted to try working on but felt was lacking when it came time to give it a proper serialization…

In that sense—

‘A little more… just a little more…’

I wanted to taste that sensation I felt earlier once more.

Then maybe I could figure out what had been missing all this time.

Of course, once wouldn’t be enough, but hey, that’s something to think about when the time comes.

If one isn’t enough, then I could just try two, or three.

So I glanced at Dogun, and as I let out a soft sigh, I noticed his face getting closer again.

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I pondered while gazing at the rather elegant-looking ceiling of my hospital room, unlike the ordinary ones I knew.

‘This won’t do.’

I felt like things couldn’t go on like this.

Honestly, I had made mistakes and hadn’t dealt with things well up to this point, so I had pretty much followed the lead of the women around me.

But having gone along with their wishes for so long, today I found myself contemplating that this just wouldn’t work anymore.

No matter how much I thought about it, I had to change something.

Continuing to go along with everything felt like it would keep me stuck in this situation forever.

And that wouldn’t be good for me or for them.

In that sense, when there was a possibility of changing something, I had to try something… but what would be good?

How should I change things?

‘But even if I do decide to change something…’

Would that really work…?

Well… since I’ve been so compliant, it should work somewhat.

It’ll probably have some effect, but that would just be them complying because I’ve been agreeable so far, not because it was sincere.

And because of that, the effect would likely be minimal.

If I really wanted to change things, I had to do it decisively… but what approach should I use?

As I was lost in thought about that method, something suddenly caught my eye.

It was the Nutritional Supplements that Chae-rim had been periodically sending me.

‘…Are these really nutritional supplements?’

Until now, I had only taken one when I felt exhausted, but what if I took three a day as she initially suggested?

If I took them properly, they might yield amazing results, making it easier for me to get back on track…

What would happen?

Maybe I’d actually be able to gain the strength and stamina to overpower the women.

‘Except for Bora, everyone else has stamina surpassing that of ordinary athletes, which is a bit of a variable, but…’

Since I was stuck here with nothing but time on my hands, if I hit the gym hard, wouldn’t I be able to boost my stamina?

With the mindset of not aiming to take them all out at once but instead taking them down one by one…?

‘Low… and… night?’

Maybe that could be possible.

‘Honestly, I don’t know if it will work, but… let’s at least give it a try.’

I, Dogun Lee, born in 2002.

Starting today, I’m going to be a low-key night owl!